Came home in a really good mood, caught up some with Colin on the way back home, turned on the computer, read some stuff, then I fall back into my previous horrible mood which was there with me in the morning.

It's all very well and easy to say the things I did in the previous post. In practice, it's DEFINITELY much harder.

Especially when it seems like it doesn't count for anything. At all.

Maybe I should have, maybe I shouldn't have. But what it's done is just to make me feel just so much worse than before. Then again, that last picture was so poignant. Made me so sad. But maybe it wasn't true.

Or was it?

I really have no idea.

That some things just don't figure.

I really don't know.

Then again, I'll try. I know I'll try. Once this day is over, I'll try again.

I know God will keep up the never-ending supply of love that I require. That's for sure.

But for now:

Hey boys, hey girls
Hey anybody who will listen to me
In case you haven't noticed
It's just me aganist the world today

I fell out of the wrong side of the bed
And landed in the worst mood
With that stupid alarm clock screaming at me
From across the room

I'm trying to be nice
I'm trying to be reasonable
But it's oh so hard when I don't wanna be
If you're looking for that nice girl
From the day before
Don't bother, she don't live here anymore

Cause it's me against the world
(Oh what a stupid day)
Yeah, it's me against the world
(Just stay out of my way)
And in case you haven't noticed
And in case you haven't heard
It's just me against the world
And the world is winning

You should have let me stay in bed
I've got this pounding in my head
No, nothing's ok
Won't you stay out of my face today?
I'm slamming doors
I'm slamming phones down
Watch out for
This temper tantrum
Stay out of my way
Cause if you don't, you will be scared away

I shall go away for now.

To spend time with God.

Since there's no one else who can really comfort me.