First it was there, then it wasn't, and now I don't know.

I HONESTLY don't know.

I know I shouldn't be thinking about these sorts of things now... It's TOTALLY the wrong time. Not to mention that I'll be taking my first MSA in less than 24 hours... Why'd that message have to come!!!

And I don't know. There was almost a revealing of sorts, I think. Perhaps it was felt. I think it might be reciprocated although I'm honestly, HONESTLY not sure. Perhaps it's me thinking too much again, but I somehow thought something'd changed since the last. And maybe it did.

Maybe I'm confused or something. Maybe it's the stress of exams. Maybe it's the fear of losing what I thought I'd had, but found out I'd never had at all. Maybe it's that realization that's suddenly causing me to cling on so tightly. Okay, not that tightly, but it's enought to get me to start thinking.

I did think of the whole thing, and yes. It was all there. But now... Now I'm really not sure.

This is total unexplored territory. I've heard people talk about it, even tried comforting them over it. Now it's happening to me, I'm not sure.

Maybe this is all temporary. Maybe the feeling'll pass tomorrow. But for now, it's real.

That waiting feeling. That can only be filled with the sound of vibration.

Maybe she's contemplating too...