It's been a long time since I messaged or talked to someone just for the sake of doing so.
And it's been a long time someone messaged or talked to me just for the sake of doing so.
I guess ideas and expectations of friends vary from person to person. And when those expectations clash, then conflict happens. I've personally seen that happen to friends.
So I decided to be passive when I came to JC.
BAD idea.
So recently I've been thinking a lot about people around me and what they mean to me. And I've been questioning my relationship with God all over again, whether my friends take precedence over God.
Sometimes I know that I want God to be first in my life, but putting it into action is so much harder.
It's more due to a feeling of neglect than anything else, but I still strive to, ultimately.
Anyway.
Results are back (okay, it was back really long ago but I'm only blogging about it now, so) and I guess I did well considering how much I studied.
I think I really have to buck up for next year. Starting this year.
I don't want to get straight D's for my BT 1, cos I know I'm capable of more than that. But I have to study. And study.
And KI's IS (Independent Study) next year does not help things.
(Seriously, if KI even has IS, it should be a H3 subject. Sheesh.)
I just found out today that this is the last week of school.
And all I can think of is, "Time has REALLY passed."
I mean, I still can remember my first day of walking into SAJC... Feeling all jumpy and nervous, wondering if people would like me or not...
And looking at the J2s in all their self-confidence.
And I'm going to be a J2 myself in a mere 3 months. 3 MONTHS. That's insane.
People keep saying they can't wait for Orientation to start, but now, I know better.
I'm going to take things slowly, council meeting by council meeting, savouring and enjoying the company of the people around me so I will not regret when we graduate next year.
And God's done so much for me this year. It's been like MAJOR training ground in so many aspects of my life. Things've been dealt with, re-dealt with, discovered, and so on. It's been wild. But good. My character's been really moulded (more into the image of God, hopefully!).
If I actually think about myself at the start of the year, I'm actually disgusted with how I behaved, like how I was disgusted in Sec 4 with the way I behaved in Sec 3, and so on.
But still, God's really been always there. And He never leaves. Which is good for me.
And it's been a long time someone messaged or talked to me just for the sake of doing so.
I guess ideas and expectations of friends vary from person to person. And when those expectations clash, then conflict happens. I've personally seen that happen to friends.
So I decided to be passive when I came to JC.
BAD idea.
So recently I've been thinking a lot about people around me and what they mean to me. And I've been questioning my relationship with God all over again, whether my friends take precedence over God.
Sometimes I know that I want God to be first in my life, but putting it into action is so much harder.
It's more due to a feeling of neglect than anything else, but I still strive to, ultimately.
Anyway.
Results are back (okay, it was back really long ago but I'm only blogging about it now, so) and I guess I did well considering how much I studied.
I think I really have to buck up for next year. Starting this year.
I don't want to get straight D's for my BT 1, cos I know I'm capable of more than that. But I have to study. And study.
And KI's IS (Independent Study) next year does not help things.
(Seriously, if KI even has IS, it should be a H3 subject. Sheesh.)
I just found out today that this is the last week of school.
And all I can think of is, "Time has REALLY passed."
I mean, I still can remember my first day of walking into SAJC... Feeling all jumpy and nervous, wondering if people would like me or not...
And looking at the J2s in all their self-confidence.
And I'm going to be a J2 myself in a mere 3 months. 3 MONTHS. That's insane.
People keep saying they can't wait for Orientation to start, but now, I know better.
I'm going to take things slowly, council meeting by council meeting, savouring and enjoying the company of the people around me so I will not regret when we graduate next year.
And God's done so much for me this year. It's been like MAJOR training ground in so many aspects of my life. Things've been dealt with, re-dealt with, discovered, and so on. It's been wild. But good. My character's been really moulded (more into the image of God, hopefully!).
If I actually think about myself at the start of the year, I'm actually disgusted with how I behaved, like how I was disgusted in Sec 4 with the way I behaved in Sec 3, and so on.
But still, God's really been always there. And He never leaves. Which is good for me.
posted by Matheus at
6:40 AM
2 Comments:
He never leaves, He never leaves... Well said.
Haha. Soon you'll find that u're going NS with a whole new bunch of bunk mates whom you'll call "buddies" :D. Time pass very fast. I can understand how u feel cuz that exactly how I feel when I started year 2. And year 3. And now, I'm graduating soon, but it seems like I just stepped into poly! That kind of feeling right! :D
But true enough, God is still good. Believe that there're times when we're so faithless. But He never left us alone to rot there. God is good, this I agree.
Study hard k :). Time will never stop, u need to work hard too! Serve the Lord more if u can :). Go go Math! We can resume out usual workout sessions when u're more free la :)
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